My first Blog entry

 Honorable,
Judge Conley,
 I will never forget a comment that you made to me on my very first day of drug-court, and I quote "you will never be nothing more than a drug addict". I am not sure if you were trying to piss me or to see how I would respond...I had to respond with my big mouth I had to point my finger right at you and say, " I am going to proof you wrong one of these days" and of course you replied back with, " little lady those are some big shoes to fill and I am going to hold you to it."  At that time I was still in full blown addiction and there was not a drug that I would not have tried or done had it been in front of me. I will never forget the cold, dark and, early morning of February 06, 2006. I was a 26 year old mother of two little girls and one step-son, a wife of 8 years to my second husband, a daughter, a sister and, a friend to many. I had been up the entire day before I went to see my Dr., now known as one of the largest "pill mills" ever ran in Ohio. The night before, I can remember leaving my house and going to the ATM withdrawing $700 cash from my account to go buy all the drugs that needed to be in my system to pass a drug screen so that I could continue receiving my medication. I only took certain ones unless I had to. I sold the biggest majority of them to other drug addicts like myself for a profit. I went to one of my dealers and bought a couple hundred dollars worth of medication, this was the last thing I remember before I woke up in the drivers seat of my Explorer sitting on the train tracks. I had apparently been to Tim Horton's because there was a cup of coffee still warm in the cup holder. I remember waking up and saying "Oh shit, I got to get to the Dr.", after laying out all night I drove home, changed my clothes, picked up my sponsor and, headed to the Dr. We were there for hours then went to a pharmacy in Columbus Ohio to get the prescriptions filled. My husband was driving a semi truck back then and still does today so he was not completely aware of all of my habits. That night all I know is I was so wasted, had I not been arrested that very night, I might not be writing this story today. Was it easy? Hell no it was by  far easy, it has been one of the hardest things in my life to conquer and still to this day I continue to fight it by choice! 
     I choose to keep my sobriety because it is important to me that I never ever go back toward that path again. I did not complete the drug court program instead I got another trafficking charge and this time I just asked to be revoked so I could just go do the time and get it over with. Little did I know at the time but by you sending me on to prison was the start of my Sobriety. Late July, 2009 I became Ky, State, Inmate, number 230373, Lisa Wallace, drug trafficker that was now owned by the state.
I did not like the sounds of that and never realized until that point what was actually happening and going on around me.............more of that chapter to come.
     I was determined that this would not define me!!! I was released on parole April 27, 2011 and was scared to death to come back in society but I did and followed all the rules and laws still to this day. I enrolled in a Criminal justice program with a local college where I obtained over  a 4.0 grade point average. I was 5 classes away from my associates degree when I was cheated by the school of my financial aid, this leaving me without my degree and owing the government over $12,000.00 in debt which I still owe to this day. This has been very stressful to me but I refuse to let it stop me in following my dreams, hopes, and passions. It has taken me awhile to figure it out but I have figured out what my purpose in life is...
     That little thump, thump, thump that I feel in my chest, my heart, this is my purpose. I want to tell my story in hopes of helping others. I am currently enrolled at Statford Career Institutes in the Criminal justice program, through the knowledge that I have gained studying government and Criminal justice I will obtain a full pardon so that I can become a naturalized citizen of the United States and,  I am also creating my own blog and an organization. Through my own trials and tribulations, my own life is how I have became and understand the woman that I am today. I have struggled with many things in my life of 41 years and through it all I have took all accountability and responsibility for my own choices (actions). My number one goal is to make changes to ensure awareness is taught in schools and to implement community projects that will bring awareness, counseling, education, diversion programs, treatment and more
     Cj and Dawson's Audacious Faith. The name is of course my two grandchildren's names. This is a faith based group that is intended to bring change and to implement the much needed awareness for drug addiction, counseling, diversion programs, counseling, and treatment for everyone! It is still very much a work in progress that will prevail in time.
     I would like for my first project to be speaking at your drug court to give a brief summary of my life and why the program is important and how the participants can benefit if they take the program serious. I would appreciate the opportunity to thank you, Arlene Hampton, and Kevin Hilgar in person as well as Johnny Bivens.
Thank you
Sincerely,
Lisa Wallace

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